My previous post saw me closing a chapter on the majority of negativity in my life, beginning anew and embracing what was to come. But now, I must begin anew once again.
It’s always like this. In a moment of a blissful temporary high, you mentally plan
to knuckle down and spruce up your blog content, feeling excited at the fact
you’ve decided to post at least once every couple of weeks or so. Then life
gets in the way – the usual justification for anyone’s lack of content. In the
space of 3 months I have endured my fair share of hardships, though two of
those were through choice.
Circumstances prompted me to make firm decisions to
avoid inevitable upset in the near and distant future. Something I struggle
with (due to my mental health battles) is motivation and I have pretty much
mastered the art of procrastination – it’s not something I’m proud of. Sometimes
I look back on my younger self and think; ‘how the heck did you wind up this
way’? I faced and fought off plenty of
battles in my teens/early 20’s, but at 26, almost 27, I am not where I’d hoped
to be.
Still, I thought I’d note things I have achieved this year, despite the
darkened tone to this post:
-Attended two conventions and debuted two new cosplays.
-One of those conventions involved spending a weekend in
London.
-Allowed pictures to be taken of me at both conventions
attended this year.
-Finally being able to like something about myself physically–
my hair which has grown a ton lately.
-Participated in my first professional photoshoot.
- -The simple admittance and acknowledging that I
wasn’t okay at all during January/February.
- -Finally found the strength to remove myself from
a negative situation that was holding me back and bringing my down physically
and mentally.
- -Moved into a nice spacious apartment.
- -Met one of my closest friends who I now live
with.
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